Faith over Fear

Last night, during evening prayer, one of the Assistant Pastors was teaching from Revelation 1, 2, and 3. As I read Revelation 2:2-7, the words came alive as if the Lord Himself was speaking directly to me. It was as if He was exposing the very struggle I had been wrestling with for so long:

“I know your deeds, your hard work and your perseverance. I know that you cannot tolerate wicked people, that you have tested those who claim to be apostles but are not and have found them false. You have persevered and have endured hardships for my name and have not grown weary. Yet I hold this against you: You have forsaken the love you had at first.  Consider how far you have fallen! Repent and do the things you did at first. If you do not repent, I will come to you and remove your lampstand from its place.  But you have this in your favor: You hate the practices of the Nicolaitans, which I also hate.  Whoever has ears, let them hear what the Spirit says to the churches. To the one who is victorious, I will give the right to eat from the tree of life, which is in the paradise of God.”

As I read those words, my heart became heavy, and I could not hold back my tears. I realized that I had allowed fear to hold me captive to the fear of rejection, fear of failure, fear that I was never good enough for what God first called me to do. I have spent years measuring myself by what others thought of me instead of standing firm in what the Father has declared over my life.

Pastor Oscar spoke about two kinds of fear, the reverential fear of the Lord and the fear that comes from the world. I saw so clearly how much of my life has been shaped by worldly fear. I have hesitated, questioned, and even self-sabotaged the very things God has placed before me. Instead of embracing my calling with confidence, I allowed doubt to creep in and hinder the fullness of what God has for me.

But last night and all of last week, something shifted. I knew I could not stay in that place any longer. The Lord was calling me back to Him, reminding me of His promises. Deuteronomy 31:8 reassured me:

“And the Lord, He is the One who goes before me. He will be with me; He will not leave me nor forsake me. Do not fear nor be dismayed.” And in 1 John 4:18, He reminded me:

“There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear. For fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected in love.”

I don’t want to stay stuck in old patterns of fear and doubt. I don’t want to just go through the motions of faith, knowing deep inside that I am holding back. I desire the newness of what God has for me. I long to walk in the freedom of His perfect love, no longer chained by fear but fully surrendered to His plan.

So today, I am making a choice. I am choosing to let go of fear and step boldly into the calling God has placed on my life. I will no longer let the opinions of man define me, because my identity is secure in Christ. I want to return to my first love, to that place of pure devotion where my heart burns only for Him.

God is doing a new thing, and I refuse to miss it!

Dear Father,

I come before You with a heart that is both humbled and grateful. As I reflect on Revelation 2:2-7, I hear Your voice calling me back, not because I have abandoned the faith, but because I have allowed fear and the opinions of man to distance me from the fullness of what You have for me.

Lord, I recognize that just like the church in Ephesus, I have labored for Your name. I have persevered, endured trials, and desired to walk in obedience. Yet, in the midst of it all, I allowed fear to creep in. I let the weight of rejection and doubt overshadow the truth of who I am in You. I have held back, second-guessed my calling, and measured myself by the flawed standards of the world instead of standing firm in Your perfect love.

But today, Lord, I surrender. I choose to return to my first love—to the place where my passion for You is unhindered, where my trust is unshaken, and where I am not bound by fear, but liberated by Your grace. I long for the newness of what You have for me. I refuse to stay in the cycle of self-doubt, hesitation, and insecurity. Instead, I am stepping forward in faith, knowing that You go before me, just as Your Word promises in Deuteronomy 31:8. Today, I want to be perfected in Your love. I choose to walk boldly in what You have spoken over my life, rather than allowing the voices of doubt to dictate my steps.

Father, You have promised in Revelation 2:7 that “To him who overcomes, I will give to eat from the tree of life, which is in the midst of the Paradise of God.” I want to be counted among those who overcome, not by my own strength, but by Your Spirit within me. Help me to overcome fear, to silence the lies of the enemy, and to walk in the confidence of my divine purpose.

Thank You, Lord, for never giving up on me. Thank You for calling me back to You, for reminding me that my worth is found in You alone. I receive the newness You are bringing into my life, and I walk forward in faith, knowing that You have already gone before me.

In Jesus’ Name, Amen.