Matters of My Heart

There are things I know God has called me to do, like speaking, singing, and ministering His truth, but I’ll be honest, sometimes I get nervous. The thought of standing in front of people makes me feel vulnerable. It’s not that I don’t want to do it, I do. It’s just that sometimes, I feel like I’m not enough.
There’s this battle between what I know God has placed inside of me and the old fears that whisper, “You’re not ready,” or “Who’s really going to listen?” I’ve spent time hiding, writing prayers, teaching in quiet places, because it felt safer. But I’m realizing that playing it safe is not what I was created for.
I want to trust God with my whole heart, not just in the quiet places, but out in the open too. I’m learning to surrender, to let go of needing to understand everything, and to lean on His strength instead of my own. I know He’s faithful. I know He’s with me. And I’m choosing to believe that He’s preparing me, equipping me, and calling me out, so I can walk boldly into everything He’s promised.
Even when I feel nervous, I’m not going to let that stop me. Because I believe His perfect love is casting out every fear.